In Retrospect

In retrospect of life
Regrets make way easy
Apologies feel far while
Life feels wasted away
While hope feels like a
Fading shade of sun
Just before it sinks
From view while you
Watch trying to grasp
How much has been
Lost in time ticking
Away in to star dust
And endless memories
Swim across the vision
All a blur, too quick to
Isolate one memory
From another but you
Can almost reach out
And intimately trace the
Fragments surrounding
You in a whirlwind of
People and places and
Words that don’t matter
For it’s too late to go
Back to ‘undo‘ the done
But you can look forward
Drop the bag of weight
Filled with dead people
You carry around and
Reach out to the ones
Standing at the doors
Waiting for you to join
Them on the other side

Your Old Man

Just because you see him smile
Doesn’t means things are okay
So don’t judge him by the lines
That are sketched on his face
But see through them if you can
The pain that hides in the eyes
The lingering shadows that are
Like a trick fading and showing
Up as a figment of imagination
Unless you look long enough to
Notice the creases etched on
His trembling hands as he hides
Them from you and laughs it
Off when you worry, saying he
Is strong and brave unlike you
The slightest way he seems to
Waver as he walks to his room
Refusing your help with a shrug
And gently pats your cheek to
Reassure you of his well-being
The way you can hear him cough
Through darkest hours of night
Making you want to run to him
But you know better than that
Your old man is your pillar of
Strength, your super hero who
Never falters and you secretly
Pray it is never any other way

Rainbows and Butterflies

If life was like rainbows and butterflies
There would be happiness all around
And honest smiles on all the faces
While they carried on with their lives
The sky would twinkle with shimmer
And grounds would vibrate with dances
World would sway in harmony and peace
But little by little the chips will fall off
We will become less thankful and more
Bored of a simple life with no crossed
Roads to jump through and no decision
To trample upon others to boast victory
And so wanting more from less will
Take over and our hunger to be the first
Will lead us to choosing paths of wrongs
Destroying and creating ripples of war
We each become enemy in other’s eyes
And soon the world goes back to how
It was before; bruised and hurt by us
We secretly leech on this life while we
Lie about wanting perfection knowing
That we won’t last in an ideal world
For our hearts are too tainted for light

Starlight Award

Hola lovelies!

One of my dearest and most favourite sister’s here nominated me for the “Starlight Award“, thank-you Kri as always. I’m honoured and I cannot apologize enough for how long I have taken to get back and respond to the nomination. I apologize for the delay. People do check out her blog, she is one of most talented and versatile bloggers out here that I know ❤

Nominations Rules:

Nominate your 6 favorite bloggers! In your nominees I would like for you to think at the light emanating from the stars the ones that truly touch your soul with their work, the ones that are the light for you a true STARLIGHT Blogger.

This Award is created to highlight and promote Inspiring Bloggers.
This Award is created to highlight and promote Inspiring Bloggers.

Rules for the STARLIGHT Blogger Award:

1. Thank the giver and link their Blog to your post.
2. Answer the 3 questions given to you.
3. Please Pass the award on to 6 or more other Bloggers of your choice and let them know that they have been nominated by you.
4. Include the logo of the award in a post or on your Blog please never alter the logo and never change the rules.

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Questions I was given:

1. How do you deal with a situation where you have nothing to write but want to write?

Answer: Honestly, I have no clue. I have never experienced what we call “Writer’s Block”. Words come easy and the desire to write is always strong, like I say that words are home for me and perhaps I have never encountered such a situation for how you can ever forget your way to your home? 🙂

2. What changes (if any) blogging has brought in you?

Answer: I do think blogging has brought a change in me, for one I have finally realized how important writing was to me, something I was pushed to do by a few close friends (still very few friends are aware of the blog I maintain) who thought I needed this and I had a way with words. Yet, I didn’t believe in my ability to write but my need to vent and let things out and here we are today. I have so many friends across the globe, I have eventually learned to broaden on topics I write and on most days am able to disconnect what I write from how I might actually be feeling. I’m still learning and got a long way to go but yes, diversity is important from where I stand now.

3. What would you like the legacy of your work to be?

Answer: Most of you’re aware that my line of work has nothing to do with writing/literature at all. In-fact, there is nothing in common with what I do in my daily life and there is too big of a disconnect. However, I sincerely hope and pray that some day I will have the opportunity to write professionally and make a difference to some lives. I’m not looking for fame, I’m the sort of person who stays away from any attention but I’d like my words to be heard and maybe they could leave a lasting impression on somebody.

My nominations:

1. Kirsty (I miss you, come back already)
2. Blondeusk
3. Dan
4. Will
5. Annie
6. Paul

My questions for you guys

1. If you could turn back time, would you? why/why not.
2. Will you kill someone to save a loved one? (given you had no other options)
3. One of your deepest fears is?

Note: Thank-you Kri again, I know I have another post to respond to, bear with me 🙂 I’m grateful for the nomination and for the nominees; good-luck guys, as always feel free to participate or not but I’d love to see your responses.

Blessings to all.<3

Plastic Heart

Her eyes shine like diamonds
Her smile dazzles the world
Her laughter resonates in halls
But her heart is made of plastic
That’s what everyone always
Says as she walks by, with her
Pride wrapped around herself
Her head held high in disdain
For others below her status
Ruthlessly she wins over hearts
Such is her beauty but viciously
She stab through them before
Finding other ways to entertain
Herself as she quickly gets bored
A certain coldness makes you
Shiver if you stand too close to
Her and the little smile playing
On her lips gives away how she
Enjoys toying with human lives
Yet charm drowns you if you
Look into her eyes and feel your
Heart ripping apart from within
You to in to her hands while you
Hopelessly want to capture her
To be yours, she is a step ahead
Weaving magic in to the air and
Taking over one human after
Another as she searches for the
One who will perish her perpetual
Hunger for power and strength

Detached Apathy

Another day passes by
As I go through the life
In same perpetual motion
Each day is the same till
I can’t tell yesterday apart
From tomorrow and today
From yesterday, weariness
To carry on with the mundane
A certain detached apathy
Lurks within my shadow
Invisible to the out-lookers
I wear a perfect smile and
Display the required emotions
As need be at times so life
Remains simple, eventually
Nothing requires effort
You don’t have to be there
To perform your daily chores
Or do the necessary socializing
All it takes is separating
Yourself from the body and
World and let detachment
Do the part it needs to as it’s
Easier this way and boring
Nothing is of interest and
People come and go while
I perform every relationship
As I must without feeling
Indifference for there is lack
Of depth I once craved for
And now life is much easier
For doing the do while letting
The mind and soul wander away
For peace and contenment

Losing my Mind

I feel drum beats echoing
Like purposely trying to
Rile me up to a war within
Almost as if the demons
Are working on a special
Project to cause mayhem
The feeling of someone
Pulling the flesh in different
Directions; the right and left
The strings moving ruthlessly
As if wanting to tear apart
My mind literally to pieces
I can hear the silence waking
Raging and crashing against
My skull wanting an escape
As these unknowns rip apart
The mind I feel turning to haze
Of memories and nightmares
A speedy blur of abstracts
Comes and float away from
My Vision making it difficult to
Separate reality from illusions
Of the mind noise that is too
Loud drowning the outside
The clock hand seems fixated
On 12 a.m while I feel eternity
Pass within my soul and mind
As it churns and rattles and
I stare at the wall waiting for
The demons to go to sleep

Allergic to E Challenge

Hey people!

So I was nominated by Kri (my lovely <3) and Riverdust (A sweetheart <3) to the ‘Allergic to E challenge’ , I have missed both 24 hours deadlines given by the amazing ladies and I apologize for that, not only have I missed them by a day or two, perhaps been over a week now. My apologies again, my work schedule and the summer heat are literally killing ( We hit a record highest temperature of 45 degrees yesterday). Doesn’t leaves any energy to do anything, anyhow before any more delays I still want to do this challenge, I hope it’s okay 🙂

Here are the rules of the challenge:

  1. Write a whole paragraph (a paragraph sounds easy right?) without any word containing the letter “e” (still easy for ya?)
  2. By reading this you are already signed up.
  3. Challenge at least five bloggers to do the challenge. They must do it within 24 hours or it is considered as failure.
  4. If you fail or pass, suffer in the Page of Lame.
  5. If you win, wallow in the Page of Fame.

Drifting Away

My mind has a will of its own; it drifts to random locations on random days without informing first. So I sat down with a blank canvas today to draw out my mind as I thought it was but as I sat on my wobbly chair, I couldn’t think of any solitary visual to draw on my canvas apart from pitch black void dancing across it. Hands shook and world swam in a blur of chaos and I lost my mind in this oncoming storm.

Here are my nominations:

1. Dan (Yeah, I love you xD)
2. Naima
3. Ayushi
4. Yoshiko
5. Sulagno

Note: I know the above stated paragraph makes no sense but I shall blame it on the heat and goodluck to the nominations ^_^

There is Love

There is Love everywhere
It is when a mother scolds
Her child for being later
It is when a father proudly
Talks about his son’s work
It is when two friends sit
And laugh across a coffee
Table catching up on life
It is when a grandmother
Bakes cookies for her
Grand-kids even when her
Hands shake and back aches
It is when she stands at the
Airport two hours earlier than
The flight, constantly looking
Down at her watch and then
The gate with hopeful eyes
It is when a child helps an
Elderly cross the road happily
It is when they write a story
Together for the world to see
It is when they argue non-stop
But he protects her from bullies
It is when the wind blows cold
And the sun shine bright while
We see a rainbow across the sky
It is spread across oceans and
Waves if only we’d pay attention

No answers

3rd day – 3rd quote

“I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel – drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have – that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all.”
Anne Sexton, Anne Sexton: A Self-Portrait in Letters

In continuation of the “3 day quotes challenge” (please refer to the link for yesterday’s post), today I have shared a quote by another literary gem, a person favourite yet again; Anne Sexton. Her works speaks for itself, I need not to say anything about the above quoted words or the lady.

Rules for the challenge:

1. Post 3 of your favourite quotes each per day for 3 recurrent days. The quotes can be of any other people or it may come straight from your own heart.
2. Nominate 3 or more bloggers with each post to challenge them.
3. Don’t forget to utter a thankful word to the person who nominated you.

Today’s nominations for the 3 day quote challenge are:

1. Paul
2. Iamarr
3. lumen (I really want to hear from you, if not too much trouble)

Good-luck to all the nominations. I look forward to seeing your posts ❤ and thank-you Kri and Steph again for this challenge. I loved it and I love you guys 🙂