In Search

Another day of disappointment
Trying to find meaning of life
This seems like perpetual circle
Of suffering to be trapped in
The battle of good and bad goes
On endlessly while I struggle
To maintain my sanity in the pool
Surrounded by insane creatures
Greed and power rule loyalties
In today’s world honesty is rarity
As I look around I notice too many
Faces which every person has
Masks changing with every smile
All this chaos makes my head spin
For I don’t understand the world
The people viciously desire to
Harm one another as they hold
Hands and greet each other with
The fake compassion they show
It makes my head hurt and spin
Not knowing who to trust anymore
For so much of the time is now spent
Pulling the knives out of my back
And tending to wounds that refuse
To heal because they run deep and
Long like the memories leaving scars
Even if you want, you can’t forget

Dead Words

So much of what we want
Goes unsaid between empty
Spaces making the distance
Longer than it needs to be
All the “I love yous’” swallowed
Too scared of rejection we let
The aching hollowness to grow
Inside our chest locking the words
We shut off the inner voice harshly
Our hearts burdened under weight
We choke and stumble around
Never an “I’m sorry” letting our
Pride win over relationships we
Keep losing people slowly till one
Day the road mirrors a graveyard
Thank yous” squashed under feet
We drive people away without
Realizing we are digging our holes
Only to wake up one day and be
Alone and numb from the inside
With regrets and what-ifs that tear
Us up by the burdens we carry
Till we pick a pen and bleed our
Hearts away letting the dead words
Out filling the voids and aches never
Heard before to let the world glimpse
The burdens of the silenced words
Hoping someone out there will act
Differently and live fully unlike us